Arriving at the hospital where the personal torture takes place, the sky turned a rosy but still gloomy grey and I was directed to the hand-powered stationary bike where I pedal with my arms to loosen up the stiff shoulder muscles.

Today's unpleasant surprise was being told that it was time for route "C". I have been doing route "B" which had turned into a pleasant "little ride" in which I know all the (missing) turns and changes of pace - in fact I can do this route with my eyes closed and no strain whatsoever. That lack of strain or perhaps my lack of smile when I muttered "mornin'" to the PT Associate prompted them to turn things up a notch.
I have no idea what the 650 Kilogram-Meters/Minute signifies on the gauge other than it meant wheezing, panting, huffing, and wincing from the shoulder complaining about it. The PT Associate kept an eagle eye on me this morning and every time I slacked off a little, he shouted "650 Kilogram-Meters/Minute! Keep it at 650 Kilogram-Meters/Minute!"
While pedalling like Benny Hill after a bleached blond, I thought to myself, "Should I get a dog? A cute one?" and about how recently I've not feeling so well - I'm not going to complain about it here - I just want you to know if I don't get around to comment on your blogs it's because I'm just kind of running with an empty gas tank.
I don't know if its depression, tiredness from stress, or just ...feeling old. While I pedal the bike and hear the PT Associate shouting at me, "650 Kilogram-Meters/Minute!" when I slow down, I am reminded of John Denver's "Poems, Prayers & Promises" in which he sings:
The days they pass so quickly now - the nights are seldom long
Time around me whispers when it's cold
The changes somehow frighten me - still I have to smile
It turns me on to think of growing old
For though the life's been good to me - there's still so much to do...
After I had staggered out of the hospital and plodded across the parking lot that felt like it was being blasted by Artic winds, I forlorningly got into my car and started my drive to work. It was but a short time later, when I suddenly felt much better having just noticed one of life's simple pleasures. It was probably nothing anyone else would get excited over - but I smiled to myself and thought, "I've never had a car with one before and as a kid growing up, I probably wouldn't have noticed, nor cared about it, but this heated car seat is soooooooooo nice!
Being in whatever mood it is that I am in, I want to give a "shout out" to some of you that have been the source of good feelings the past few weeks when I needed it most.
To do so, with LadyStyx's helpful graphical talents, we have created a brand-new award - one not ever given before. The "Warm and Fuzzy" award for bloggers that leave me feeling better, better about myself, about the world in general, and/or give me a laugh, a smile, or somehow generate a deep-seated feeling of warmth that can only be called happiness at just the right time. It could almost have been called the "better than chocolate" award. I've probably omitted some folks I should include and if so, I apologize and will make amends when it comes to my attention.

I'd like to give this award to:
The Wife O Riley
Tori Z
Celtic Spirit
Marmite Toasty
Lainie
ChicagoLady
MemeLove
Gypsy Heart
Punkn
Alice Kay
Karla
LadyStyx
and to
Karen who is Tori's mom. This remarkable woman who has just gotten her driver's license over in Wales after 18 months of learning and preparing (at about my age) has raised two remarkable children, Tori and Carl to overcome being blind and to be the kind of people the world really needs - talented, cheery, caring and strong. They are a living testament to their mother's care and dedication. Hats off to Karen!
I have been remiss in posting recent awards - I am always delighted to win one - and I do try to make interesting entries in this blog. Some days, I think I do and other days I don't. Sometimes just thinking about what to say in a comment can be hard - since I don't feel like I fit in and some of the topics aren't "for guys" anyway.

From The Wife O Riley I can't read this award, it being written in Swedish (I think) but the part I can read says Nobel Prize - who can resist one of those?

From The Wife O Riley I can't read this award either beyond the title and tracked it back through four or five blogs hoping to find one that I could but without success. But the part I can read - I surely can appreciate.
Edited: My thanks to LadyStyx who sent me a "old fart" size of the award so I could read it - the award says, "You are truely beautiful. Beautiful means so much more than just a face! It also means that you are unique, and oh so full of grace. The things in you that go much deeper than the softness of your skin. Are the things that make you beautiful, both outside and within. You are hereby given this Certificate in Recognition that you are 100% Beautiful."
Well...gee... golly... me and my "soft skin" are blushing... big time.

From LadyStyx, the talented graphical artist, music critic extraordinaire, and roving photojournalist without equal. Thank you LadyStyx - you help me make this blog what it is - perhaps more so than you realize.
I apologize for this long and meandering entry. It just needed saying.






